6 years.

www.starks.tumblr.com

6 years later.

almost a year.

6 days to your death anniversary. It's almost a year, but your death felt like it happened just yesterday.
We've missed you so much, and always will.


love forever,
rena.

我的希望来了.

i can't wait for july.
for now, i'm on the lookout for studio apartments /sharehouse.
anyone*?

* strictly melbourne city only. st kilda is the furthest i'd go.

希望

没有希望所以没有期待.

だから、見込み はない期待していない。

그래서 희망이 없다 기대하지 않습니다.

感谢你给我的爱.我永远不会忘记.

je vous remercie de l’amour, je n’oublierai jamais.

xx.

wake the dead.

And he would sleep for a hundred days, and wake up tired from the sadness of another hundred days of missed opportunities.

because, i know no other way.
i'm good.

team sleep - natalie portman.

Little tune alright?
I'm not gonna wait for you tonight .
Live from the stage
I'm sure ,I'm not gonna wait for you anymore in new wave its alright.
I'm walking away from you tonight
Live on the stage
I'm sure, I'm not gonna look at you anymore the same way .

may day

another month closer to the day i leave.
i have a list of things to say to you.
for me, for us- to be a better person individually.

please let me get what i want.

The armour has cracked

why is it that every time i get a foothold on something, it'll slip and fall back into the muck?

I'm surrounded by derelicts, they search me out, they hunt me. they find me and try to kill me.

This armour is going to shatter to pieces. just like you and i.
5 more days. and this, no more.

sel-fish,selfish.

1 after another.
motherfuckers.
brain damage, do you hear me?
1 after another.
manipulative.
at night the darkness frightens me.
motherfucking manipulative selfish bastards.
brain damage. brain damage, brain damage.
you're about to push me off this cliff.

49 hours.

I haven't been to bed in 49 hours.
I've been living on this step high for awhile.
even the sky can't stop mocking us.
the heavy rain. the silent tears.
the mis-trust in so many motherfuckers.
who am i fucking kidding?
1 and a half weeks till school ends.
i really cannot wait.
I need to stop all that self-pitying shit, get my fucking life together.
stop fucking going to starbucks.
stop smoking so much.
stop getting people to clean up my vomit, okay maybe a few more times.
okay, 49 hours. i should go now.

forgive me, i'm trying my best.

circle

i dived into the pool, into this supposed nothingness.
i tried to come up for air, the denim and the extra cloth weigh me down.
i struggled, you jumped in, and pulled me up for air.
that moment, that eye contact - it was one of those unexplainable moments of eye contact, that is immediately overanalyzed and inevitably misread.
All we did, was sat by the pool.
The silence , so comforting. I missed it so much.
You had that smile. I wish you'll have it forever.
I wish you love forever. you're not mine to keep.

keep breathing. life is a vicious cycle.
we lose and gain. gain then lose.
I've loved you superman.

My head's in a mess.

4 years of jail term. 

Did i kill the friendship? 

i'll be waiting for you in 2014. 

thank you for letting me live thru my dreams.

selfish self. you hate me. i hate myself more. 

somebody tell me

Will i ever heal? 

tonight, i remember the pain. 

enjoy (y)our youth

you'll never be younger than you are at this very moment.

So many 'plans' put to action. Plans for july moved to june.

time is running out. But i've never been happier. I mean who wouldn't?

im another step closer to my dream.

If you pray, please keep me in your prayers.

I need them. 

and im really quite depressed, fucken youtube failed me. Im using the sister's windowzz. fuck.

anyway my mac's 3 years old, time to get new one. 

song of the week!